I can’t sleep.
Fear:
it consumes me.
Crawling, creeping, encroaching
through to my brain.
My body, startled,
can’t react.
Fear of failure
Fear of wrongdoing
Fear of mockery
Fear of oversight.
Staring at the wall ahead of me
with darkness all around,
I lie spiritless
and play out stories
of all mistakes to come.
Anxiety takes ahold of me
and keeps my eyes awake;
depression seeps
between the vulnerabilities
to remind me
I’m a fake.
